A Lot can Change in 30 Days

I am starting one of the Darebee Programs.  It’s called 30 Days of Change.  Below is the description of the program.

“30 Days of Change program is designed to change your exercise habits as well as the way you look and feel – in a month. It is completely 100% equipment free. Different daily programs will ensure that your body doesn’t adapt to the same routine so you’ll see progress a lot sooner than with any other program.

30 Days of Change is designed for weight loss and toning up, it is pretty intense but it keeps the day-to-day routines balanced and just hard enough to keep your body changing. A different daily regimen helps you get the best results for the given amount of time. This program includes a lot of outside cardio so you have to be prepared to get outside from time to time and walk, jog or run. Some days consist of two parts, bodyweight and cardio routines – you can do one after the other or do one in the morning and one in the evening.”

I am starting this tomorrow since it’s 8:37PM EST and I’m going to bed in about 90 mins (basically after I’m done writing, rewriting, proofreading-ish this post).   I am pretty psyched since I haven’t gone to a trainer (funds have been low) and this looks actually do-able.

I also took a look at their meal plan page .  I am going to do their Modern Hero Diet plan.  It appears to be sustainable and something that I could get into.  It’s not super restrictive, but it gives you recipes to all the meals they are telling you to have (which are like 6-8 choices)  which is nice.  They also have a nutrition page and a recipes page .

Going back to the last post of not believing, I am slowly starting to.  I have seen progress (slow progress) with what I have been doing and now I really want to kick it up a notch.

I will report back (weekly) on how things are going…

I also wanted to disclaim this before anyone says anything – I am not part of the darebee project/website/company.  I am someone who came across it and thought it would be a good place to start for someone who doesn’t have a trainer or a nutritionist….

Keep killin those calories




So, What’s Keeping You From Starting?

In one of my fitness groups on Facebook, someone posed a question.

So what’s keeping you from starting?

It’s a really big question because you have to be completely honest with yourself. Below is part of my response…

“My relationship with myself. Thinking I am not worth it. Not truly believing I can lose the wieght. And then turning to the emotional eating when my father and the guy who I considered my 2nd dad passed away. Having ankle surgery that made a profound negative impact on me losing weight because I gained everything I lost plus losing all the muscle and all the cardio I could do prior to it.

When you’ve been overweight for so long you become comfortable, not necessarily complacent because none of us REALLY want to be here. But its the changes that also scare me. How people will perceive me. How mad and upset I’ll be when I get treated better when I lose the weight because then I will ask myself, why wasn’t I good enough before.

I am seeking professional therapy to address the self worth issue. But for me I guess that is the root. As silly or crazy [as it sounds], when you are beaten down by other people and yourself for so long, you start believing you can’t do it or aren’t worth it.

But I hit rock bottom. I have been emotionally eating for the past two months and today,for the first time ever, I had to get a seat belt extender for the airplane. I literally wanted to cry when I asked for it. So, it’s making a conscious decision to just go through the motions of going to the gym and eating better (most of the time). And not beat myself up over if I have cheerios instead of egg whites or having a beer instead of seltzer water with lime.”

What a lot of people don’t understand is the mental aspect of losing significant amount of weight.  Because you do question, “why wasn’t I worth it before?”  “why am I a better person now that I have lost the weight?”  “Can I really do it?”  The inner struggle with yourself is huge.  I am self aware enough that I am seeking professional help during this time of immense change.  I have to be forgiving of myself and and be okay with the choices I make.  Even if they aren’t the best ones.

“Your beliefs become your thoughts,
Your thoughts become your words,
Your words become your actions,
Your actions become your habits,
Your habits become your values,
Your values become your destiny.”
~ Ghandi

I know I have to start changing my beliefs.  Start believing in myself. In that I can achieve my goals and not be ashamed of them either.  I know I already posted Hailee Steinfield’s song – Love Myself, but I really need to listen to this and Rachel Platten’s Fight Song.  Both are strong messages of believing in yourself and to fight for what you want.

Keep on killing those calories…